But now is just not the time I suppose. There are things I want to do, places I want to go before I become a mommy. I want to travel Europe, Africa, see the East coast, and have spontaneous vacations. I know all of that will be nearly impossible when we have kids and I do want to experience those freedoms that I have now. Also, I love the alone time I get with Brand. I think about it a lot when we're just hanging out how this is my favorite thing to do. And of course there's the money thing and the fact that I want to stay home with the kids and right now we can't do that. However, if I were to find out I were pregnant right now...I'd drop everything and trade all that in for mommyhood. And here's the thing, Brand and I have been married for almost a year and we have not gone anywhere or really done anything we've wanted to do before we have kids, except enjoy the freedoms a child-less life gives. And we both are certainly not going to put off kids so that we can do all this stuff because I think in the end...a child is more rewarding than a trip to Europe, a tour through the Smithsonian, a Christmas in NYC, or a road trip through the US and I'm willing to give those experiences up to have the real experience of a lifetime. Plus, I know a lady that didn't travel until her 60's and she went everywhere! But for now..just an empty belly (save for lasgna and ice cream)...
Oh and I'm sure this belly won't be around after kids...so I guess I can enjoy that..Though I think the signs of "sacrifice" that a woman gives for a child should be honored and beautified instead of something that needs to be shed so fast (thanks US Weekly).You just carried a growing human being in your body for 9 months..that should be celebrated! If someone goes to war and gets some huge scar across their body we honor them and it's a sign of their bravery, not something to be covered up. So someone tell me I said these words when my body suddenly changes from 24 year old non-mommy to 20 something year old mommy.
Anyway, pity party over..the day I found out I'm pregnant will make me the happiest person in the world, I'm willing to bet on it. But that'll be a few years from now..*sigh* all good things come to those who wait..right?
i know it's hard to wait, but believe me, it's worth it. nick and i had dated for 3 years, and then married for another 3 before we had kids. we made it a point to do something we dreamed of before kids (peace corps!) and although i longed to be done birthing children before age 27...we are so glad we waited. use the time to get to really know your hubby, and to enjoy your freedoms together. nick and i had a lot of time to talk about how we wanted to be as parents before it happened and it has truly helped us during the bumpy times of parenthood. and thanks for reminding me that i shouldn't be so embarrassed of my 3 times over prego mama belly. this body has done a lot of work!
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