Looking Ahead

I've written five blog posts since our miscarriage. None of them are posted. It's pretty heavy stuff, so heavy I just don't feel like letting every person in the world read them. So I've decided to post a light-hearted and hopeful (a word I loathe using right now but am forcing myself to use it) post with a look into the future.
Brand and I are trying to distract ourselves from thinking too much about our Sweet Pea so we've decided to start taking further steps into our plans. So here is what we are looking forward to in the next few months:
1.) Maui! We are going to Maui in September for our 3 year anniversary. It was originally going to be a babymoon but we are excited to go back to the place of our honeymoon. We are blessed enough to have parents (Brand's parents) who own a condo on the beach. We got to honeymoon there and now we get to go back. It'll be fun to go back to our favorite spots and also create new memories. Brand and I need to get away from the sadness this year has brought us and just relax, just him and me.
2.) Julie is visiting in August! My big sis is coming back for more. She so eloquently said last time she was here that living in Spokane means that when people come visit you it's to visit YOU and not to see the sites. It's true, we showed her what we wanted to last time so we'll have to get creative. Maybe Greenbluff?
3.)Hurley!yui (Hurley wrote those last three letters) Hurley is our newest addition. He's the puppy that has me occupied a million times a day. He's the little guy that keeps my mind off the tragedy that consumes every thought. He's also one of the enticing reasons for Julie to come visit. Julie has a soft spot for dogs and she's excited to meet her new nephew.
4.) Little things like: the Olympics!, BBQing, walks in our favorite park, watching Dr. Who and Breaking Bad on Netflix, swimming in Lake CDA, floating the Omak River, ice cream, sno cones, etc.
5.) Buying a house? Brand and I have been saving to buy a house and the market is great now and we really need to jump on it before things start turning around. We are blessed enough to have a mom (Brand's) who is a shark of a realtor and has offered to be ours (which would mean about 3% off our cost of the house because she'd be doing it for nothing). She's good at what she does and she's the one you want at a used car dealer, plus she's an expert as a realtor and as a multiple homebuyer ( my in-laws own 6 homes, one they live in, the rest they rent out, I think they may know a thing or two about buying homes).
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6.) Trying for our rainbow baby (a rainbow baby is a baby born live after a miscarriage or stillbirth). We are very close to being able to try again. We would be able to try right now but we opted to take caution and wait a little bit longer. Plus, I don't think I'm in a good enough emotional state. The thought of another miscarriage scares me enough to almost never try again. But the thought of finally holding a live baby in my arms makes me feel like it'll be worth the risk. We're hoping to be just as lucky this time around and get pregnant right away, but I'm not holding my breath. Either way, if you're reading this, friend, family, or stranger, we're looking forward to sharing good news with you..when/if we reach the 2nd trimester. These cautious parents just got more cautious.

It seems like life is always about new adventures, good or bad, and we're trying to navigate it the best we can.We're hoping these new adventures will bring much needed joy and happiness into our lives. No matter what, I'm happy to know that I have an amazing husband by my side. I'm blessed to know that the worst of the worse doesn't scare him away but draws him closer to me. I seriously have the best husband in the world. The most amazing man. I could not ask for a better partner to help shoulder the tough times but also to enjoy the wonderful.