Sacrifice

When you love someone so much it hurts sometimes you have to sacrifice things for their happiness. Things that mean a lot to you, that represent a part of you, things that you can't bear give up. Sure they're just things and you will heal from their loss, but it still is hard.
I had to do that this week. Almost unwillingly, but I knew it was for the greater good (the greater good).
Dexter has not had a toy in awhile to play with. He's been bugging us endlessly for attention because all his toys are in toy heaven. So Brand said that I had to pick one of my little stuffed animals to give to Dexter. Dexter loves his stuffed animals and carries them wherever he goes...so I knew that this would make him happier than anything else we could get him. I pleaded with Brand anyway to not make me choose but he didn't budge. My stuffed animals mean a lot to me. They all were given to me by someone I love or represent my childhood, it's hard to give that up. It came between a little penguin I got for free at one of those black Friday sales (which reminds me of Christmas as a kid..my happiest memories) or a pink elephant that both me and my best friend Alina got years ago...He let Dexter decide and he chose the penguin. The penguin that was used as Wheezey in my Toy Story games, the one that represented Christmas was now no longer mine. I'm happy Dexter's happy...but if we need to choose another animal...we're going to a garage sale and getting an orphaned one.