My Three Kids

I can't believe that a little over a year since we lost our first Sweet Pea, that I'm writing this as my baby boy kicks in my belly. It's been a long, hard, but so rewarding journey. We've been through utter devastation and heartbreak. We learned how to repair our hearts and how to seek the Lord even though we didn't want to. We learned that awful things happen but beauty can just be right around the corner. Our Sweet Peas opened our hearts more than we ever thought possible. We loved deeper and richer for the littlest humans we have ever met. It is because of them and through the Lord's mercy and grace that we are where we are now. It is because of them that we are becoming foster parents and it is because of them that every moment with this little boy in my belly is more precious than the last. I think of them everyday and it is bittersweet but I am blessed that my heart has three babies in it forever.
But now, I have a little boy who has stole my heart just like they did. And every day he takes a little bit more of it. Every little kick brings a smile to my face and sometimes a tear to my eye. I am so grateful for this miracle. He came at a time in our life when we didn't think it was going to happen. We were about to start fertility medications and had just turned in our foster application. Well the fertility medications are sitting unopened in our closet. As for the foster parenting, well it is still our passion. We are still going to become licensed. Since we have the room and the license (SOON!) we will be providing respite care to other foster parents when they need a break. We can have a kiddo for up to two weeks and might as well! Our hearts and our home is opened to it. Plus it'll give us great practice. As for when our son arrives, we will take some time off and hopefully dive into being full-time foster parents sometime next year. We do hope to adopt but mostly we hope to provide a loving, safe home to children in Spokane for however long they need. We still believe in foster parenting and we still believe becoming a forever family for a foster child is what the Lord has called us to do. We are so excited for all the children to come through our home, biological and foster.
So this is a big thank you to our Sweet Peas. They paved the way into our hearts and they'll never leave and we hope to make them proud to call us their mom and dad as we go out to take care of the orphans, just like we're commanded to do. And we hope that because of them, we can love our baby boy even more than we would have if it hadn't been for them.
And another thank you to our family, friends, and church family that have been so supportive and loving through our journey. And another thank you to the ladies that have reached out to me during this time with their stories of their angels. I share in your sorrow or your joy. We are bonded in a special (unasked-for) way and I think of you all often and pray for those days when you need peace.
And with that, I'm off to eat...again :)